The answer is no. I'm not gonna try, at least not anymore, I have already tried. There's only so much I can do, if I'm the only one trying nothing will ever get better. It's not that I'm giving up, I'm just not going to do anymore than I've already done, because I know that it just won't work if I'm the only one who cares about resolving things.




I deserve so much better. I have earned so much better. I have given so much better.





I finished "Please Stop Laughing at me", and I agree with Allie. The book made me cry several times. It's just so heartbreaking. It sort of sucked in the beginning, but once I got into it, it was great.

I'm glad I sacrificed my reputation to make friends with the outcasts in elementary school, I probably have done a lot of good in a lot of peoples lives.

Then again, it turns out when I need something they can barely give me a graceful concern. They pussy out. So I guess none of that has really benefited me, well, maybe in a certain way.

What I have saved has burned me.

You can do so much for a person and always be there for them, but that doesn't mean they'll do the same for you.

It's not cause they can't, they just won't.





"There's a war inside of me
Do I cause new heartbreak to write a new broken song
Do I push it down or let it run me right into the ground
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
Well I can't stop talking for fear of listening to unwelcome sound
And you haven't called me in weeks and honestly it's bringing me down
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me
And don't you worry there's still time
There's nothing to live for when I'm sleeping alone
And I wash the windows outside in hopes that the glare will bring you around
Sunshine is days away I won't be saved I know all the words
I can't say that I'll love you forever
I won't say that I'll love you forever" ~Tegan and Sara (You Wouldn't Like Me)



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